Hardest thing I have done....

This is by far the hardest thing I have done in my life so far. I know I am relatively young but I have done many things. Good and bad. Leaving my loved ones behind at the airport last night was probably the hardest thing I have EVER done. I have never felt so alone and empty like I did sitting in the terminal at the airport. My son was such a great young man last night. He fought to hold his tears in and listen to his dad say that he will be missed and that he will call him. Ultimately though, his age got the best of him. Kanoa is 6. He started to cry and it just wrecked my heart. Not to mention the hearts of the others there with me. My mother, father, big sis, lil sis, daughter (3), son (6), and one of the most loving and caring peple in my life were there at the airport. I want to thank them all for taking me to the airport and putting up with my crap while I was still in SD. I also want to thank my two special friends that came to see me before I left for the airport. As a matter of fact all my friends. You all know who you are. I visted each and everyone of you on Thursday before I left. Thinking of them all makes me wonder, Why the hell did I come here? They all love me and care for me so much, and yet I felt the need to leave and pursue something that is not a for sure thing. A dream. An illusion of what might be. Well, I will work hard and ensure that this trip and pain that we are all suffering does NOT go to waste.

Did anyone buy me a Lotto ticket?

Luggage!!!!

Get this...one year in a foreign country and the company i work for has ONLY allotted me ONE personal bag. What am I suppose to pack? I know this should have been topic of conversation last week before I left but I was too busy moving to worry about posting. Now I have nothing but time to post. So on with my blog....

I am on my way....

Well here is my first post from another place besides San Diego CA. I am here in Ft Benning GA trying to figure out what exactly they will be training me on. I am sitting in a "compound" surrounded by a fence that doesn't let any radio (cell phone) communications in. This crap sucks so far. Was it a mistake? Lets hope not. I won't be able to post any pics any time soon but as soon as I can I shall.